March Break, Moving, and Misr

I guess it's been a few weeks since I've had a chance to write anything. Time flies when you're having fun... or in the middle of many changes. Here's a brief update.

As you can tell by the poem below, I recently returned to Canada, for a short stint visiting family and friends, and a bit of work on the side. Some of the highlights from that trip include:

- enjoying fufu and red red with some of the Ghana roomies at a Toronto restaurant blaring authentic beats... what a trip back to the good 'ol days!!
- sharing food with family (both my favourite treats from Egypt and homecooked Canadian meals around our dining room table)
- catching up with Canadian friends over coffee
- cooking deliciousness and hanging out all day with friends in London England
- stocking up on supplies (books, food, music, clothes)
- enjoying a few wonderful soft beds and pillows
- catching up on all the latest movies in the plane rides in between everything

I know these things all sound very material... most of them involve food, but really, it's just the facilitator of wonderful interactions with loved ones (which is what really mattered!!), and the things I needed to recharge my battery! And, it's good to appreciate the little things right?!

When I got back to Cairo, I felt refreshed and ready to take on the next eight months. (I guess I should mention that while in Canada I agreed to extend my contract until mid-December. I feel good about this decision, as it will give me time to see a few things through to their conclusion, learn more arabic, and really deepen in my connections here.) Truth be told, I rather missed the arabic, and many aspects of life here that I am really enjoying. Coming back, it was easy to slip into old routines, and to start creating new ones... it was like a second chance at balancing work and personal life, and making sure I'm really present in this experience. I'm grateful for this opportunity!

After a few weeks in Cairo, it was time to begin planning for a move to Aswan!! While it was hard to say goodbye to my room-mate (who will leave Egypt before I return to Cairo), I was happy to be leaving the chaos of Cairo for a few weeks... particularly for the beautiful peace of Aswan. Aswan is one of my favourite places in Egypt... if not the world! It is a gorgeous blend of desert and lush palm trees, a river afloat with feluccas, and quaint islands full of laid back Nubians who will happily show you their farmland and village. I know I'm painting the idyllic picture here, but I really love this side of the area, the slower pace of life of the town, and lack of pollution!! Of course there are lots of tourists who take the Nile cruises up to Luxor, and therefore there's lots of hassling Egyptians, but i'll take that over the physical harassment I've experienced in Cairo any day! I've now been in Aswan for half a week and am enjoying my new neighbourhood, interactions with landlords and EACID staff and locals, and the opportunity to live this as well as the Cairo life!

More soon...

finding home in limboland... al motar inharda

We mingle in the half-dream quiet of a midnight airport
I am everywhere and nowhere at the same time.
Egypt seems intangible in this exhausted waiting…
Have I always been here or have I yet to arrive?

A stream of Sudanese women shuffle by
and a pang of longing passes through me unanticipated…
(wishing sub-Saharan Africa to be home again…
to work more directly with those suffering from conflict.)
Patience… peace… all in good time…

Half-formed questions swirl in the internal fog:
What have l learned from my months in Egypt?
How am I changing?
How will this be…
Will visiting ‘home’ trigger startling readjustments,
incessant shivering, criticisms of a country that has so much together?
Or have years as a global citizen prepared me for this brief reentry?
Will I be ready to return to Egypt?
How will the pollution be in the heat?
Can I handle more of the harassment with patience and grace?
… where is my home?

Thoughts drift to the people I carry with me to my family:
The hair dressers, carpenters, automotive repairmen and apprentices in Doweika,
Friends who send their greetings, coworkers continuing in our programming.
How do I choose which stories to share?
What new stories await my return to this desert land?

A few hours later: another airport, a beautiful new blend of people.
Beside me an Indian mother and babe cuddle in the lounge.
Ama sleeps soundly until her baby stirs… innately responding to her daughter’s need.
She smiles from her colourful cottons as she feeds the little one…
the satisfied pair returning to a serene slumber.
Where are they coming from? Where is their journey carrying them?
What stories lie beneath Ama’s heartfelt smile?
I send them love for the journey
And gratitude for the ‘home’ we have shared in this moment.

Finally, a third continent, a third airport, a third set of stories…
this time from Iran.
Separate encounters:
a devoted father commuting to support his family,
a strong woman returning from a visit with her sick mother,
sharing pieces of our lives in Canada and the Middle East.
I wonder at the comfort I feel with these people,
and later at my happiness to hear airport staff speaking Egyptian Arabic waiting for my bags…
My family is growing with each new journey.

For a wandering soul home is not a place… it is the sense of inner peace that fills us when we share love.
It is in relationships that ground us, experiences that nurture us.
Our quest is to find home wherever we are and to build mansions large enough for all the human family.

(written en route to Canada March 11, 08)

the impact of PPIC-Work - Mohammed's story

I've left you hanging for a time with that somewhat heavy post. There will be more articulations of struggle to come, but for now, I'd like to share the heartwarming story of one of the PPIC-Work boys I interviewed in Aswan earlier this month.


Meet Mohammed, a sixteen year old computer-whiz from Aswan. Mohammed has been combining work and school since he was eight years old because he wanted to help take some of the burden off of his father and contribute to the household. Over the past eight years Mohammed has worked with a range of different businesses: a street vending enterprise, a construction company, a plumbing company, and now, a restaurant. He sees work as a positive force in his life: “At the age of eight many children can work… why shouldn’t I be working – gaining independence, and the understanding of how society works” he explains.

Over the past six years, Mohammed has participated in the full gamut of PPIC-Work programming through our Aswan partner, EACID. After learning about his rights, and that the work he was doing was unsafe, he left the construction industry at the age of 12 for a plumbing job. For the past three years he has worked in a restaurant, and has recently transitioned to work in the kitchen, now that he is older. “I have learned from my mistakes working in an unsafe environment and I won’t do it again,” he affirms.

Since participating in EACID’s educational programming Mohammed says he has learned about the importance of a code of conduct, his rights as a human being, the potential hazards in the workplace, and business skills (through the Ba’alty computer game). Mohammed loves the Ba’alty game and is easily one of the top players in Aswan. He says that Ba’alty has taught him how to invest his money so he will have something to live on in the future.

Mohammed has many aspirations for the future. After he graduates from high school next year he is thinking about starting a business of his own with the knowledge he has gained from EACID about the loan system, or working in business management. He wants to play a large role in developing the business so that if there are children working with him they will have a safe environment and receive better treatment than he did growing up.

Yet even more than he’d like to run a business, Mohammed is keen work with EACID in the future. He is passionate to educate working children about their rights, to help improve safety in the workplace, and to expand the Association’s non-financial programming to other parts of the country. And, Mohammed has some experience with spreading the PPIC-Work message already: he has encouraged other working children to join EACID’s programs, and has accompanied younger siblings to meetings with potential employers. Business owners must agree to the code of conduct he outlines (whether they’re an EACID client or not) if they want his family members to work with them.

With the help of Mohammed, the PPIC-Work concept is touching the lives of working children beyond the scope of EACID’s loans or programming. And one must only look at his confident smile or vision-filled eyes to see the difference PPIC-Work has made in his own life already.

Yella Mohammed!

an idealist's struggle with cynicism

Right now life in Cairo has its ups and downs. Some mornings I wake up to the sunshine with a smile on my face: motivated to move about the city, conduct interviews with working children, or represent PPIC-Work at a CIDA 'Synergy' meeting. Other mornings I feel I'm walking in a heavy fog (both metaphorically and literally). It's not that anything is 'wrong' - it's just facing the reality of life here and feeling the challenges of inequality and violence in the world.


After attending a few conferences and presentations this month I'm feeling heavy or discouraged about the development industry: particularly about the amount of money spent on fancy brochures, paper pushing and publicity gigs which could do so much more good if channeled into project programming instead. Why are so many conferences and workshops conducted at lavish hotels? How can we justify spending so much money on things that begin and end in words alone?

Unfortunately, this is not my first exposure to the uppity side of development. While interning in Ghana I represented our tiny NGO at a three-day workshop at a National Park out in the northern Sahel. We had a wonderful time 'mainstreaming' gender in all aspects of a large International NGO's programming while on safari. (I'll never forget being chased to the lodge by a ferocious baboon, or watching elephants congregate around the nearby watering hole!) But on top of the sheer decadence (and dare I say hypocrisy) of it all, most of the NGO staff got wonderful per diems to compensate them from being away from their families. (What a tremendous sacrifice!) As I felt guilty about those unnecessary expenditures in Ghana, I felt similarly foolish tucking into a four course meal at a five-star Nile-side hotel last week.

This time the conference was to celebrate the achievements of an SME policy project within the Egyptian Government (which CIDA funded for the last seven years). Sitting in on panel discussions and plenaries for two days was not my idea of fun: most of the information was not relevant to our project, or, in my opinion, to the majority of the people attending. And perhaps the height of the conference's ridiculousness was the awards ceremony the first night. After presenting plaques to people who contributed to the project and left, to who those who stayed, those who provided technical support (etc ad nauseam); the final awards were for the three presenters themselves. While they took turns bestowing plaques and shaking each other's hands in formal spectacle I had to stifle a sad laugh... is this where our taxes are going?! No wonder we're being called to embrace RBM more and more!

I am grateful at least that the PPIC-Work project is not embracing that egotistical approach. I have been utterly impressed with Richard's integrity as a director and how we allocate our budgets. His Egypt flat doubles as our administrative office (and we frequently work from home), our workshops are designed to train new microfinance institutions in the intervention tools we've developed, and we try not to stay in the more plush hotels when traveling for the project. If only there were more people and organizations that embraced this conscientious approach!

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On another level I have increasingly felt myself in a fog when it comes to the practical 'how to's of development in Egypt. I am feeling this for a couple reasons. First, I have recently encountered a lot of apathy... many people (particularly in the lower economic brackets) are only working for money, and therefore are not putting much soul into their work (stretching tea time for as long as possible, neglecting basic upkeep and organization, not worrying about who they exploit through their work or the working conditions of their employees, the list goes on). Perhaps this is because they are making too little money to care, because they do not feel that the work they are doing is meaningful, or because they see little room for change... I don't know.

Apathy also extends to the community level, with widespread acquiescence or complacency about the extremes of wealth and poverty and the plight of the economically marginalized. There is considerable wealth in Egypt but overall it feels like the economy is stagnating and the middle class disappearing in the wake of gated communities on the coast and crumbling apartments in bursting cities. I find my frequent movement between Cairo's glitzy hotels and informal settlements jarring... It's hard to return to my safe, warm house knowing that children are shivering in the streets, or struggling with an abusive parent.

I have even encountered apathy in Doweika. Here business owners in the textile industry were unwilling to meet with us if there was not immediate gain for them... perhaps because they are struggling to make ends meet they do not have the luxury to care about the long term well-being of their workers and how this will benefit their business. It's also hard to know how to intervene in the textile industry over all...Given the nature of our project (starting with the buy-in of business owners through loans) their lack of collaboration presents a formidable challenge. And then, because they are not fully embracing an apprenticeship model (particularly for their female employees) it becomes hard to work with them on educational methodologies because the changes required would be too great for them to want to do.

Finally I have observed apathy in the younger generations on both extremes of the economic spectrum. Those on the low end don't seem to have much hope for things changing for them... girls who were forced to drop out of school to work at a young age see only a life of work and marriage before them. Most don't want to work once they are married because tradition dictates that they not... resigning themselves to their husband's decision-making authority over them. At the same time, many growing up in more affluent communities are sheltered from the realities of struggling neighbourhoods, and therefore feel little empathy. Encountering a private school girl on the metro the other day I heard only about her eagerness to leave her 'boring' world of Cairo coffee shops and boyfriends for a university in Australia...

In a nutshell, these various manifestations of apathy make development work here heavy.

Second, is the complex development context here... We have a small tree on our patio, planted in a garbage can. It often falls over in gusts of wind. I feel this tree is a metaphor for Egypt: trying to develop fruits (a vibrant civil society and economy), but struggling from the confinement and lack of nourishment in its roots (an atrocious public education system [which anyone who can afford NOT to use, does - perpetuating a society that is highly stratified along economic/education lines], a struggling economy, an undemocratic and enormously clumsy government, and of course attitudes like apathy and greed). Given these challenges how can we effectively change things here? It seems we cannot address educational or economic reform without addressing good governance, but doesn't good governance require an active civil society - created through education? Even in our small project we feel this vicious cycle.

Yet amidst these challenges I have to mention the dedication of many Egyptians to the development of their country. It is always dangerous to speak in generalizations as my cynicism has led me to do tonight, and I have to concede I've been truly inspired by the efforts of many peers and mentors over the past four months. In moments of ambivalence I recall the words of friends, reminding me that all we can do is scatter seeds and hope they will be nurtured in fertile soil... that we can't change everything overnight and that the people of Egypt are as human as they come - full of determination, despair, love and fear - showing us how to struggle for transcendence, living life in all its intensity.

So that's where I'm at right now... critical but I hope not jaded... still committed to learning through work and smiling at the sun.

Party in Paradise: new years adventures in Siwa Pt3

And now for the party!

Until now my descriptions haven't reflected much of the title... only the fact that these adventures have been in Siwa. One of the highlights of the whole trip was New Year's Eve itself, when I got a chance to celebrate with Bedouin and foreign party-goers at a hot spring near town.

I happened upon this party by accident, really. I had become friends with Fahmy, the beautiful soul below, and chef/restaurant owner at the budget hotel where I stayed. I asked him for recommendations from the few bashes scattered around town and where he was planning to bring in the new year himself. He offered to take me to the gathering at Cleopatra's Bath, and I thought "Why not? It sure beats bringing in the new year alone!" So off we went on our bikes on a beautiful, (freezing!) headlamp-lit night. (For all the parents in the crowd I'll emphasize that I already knew Fahmy to be a trustworthy man from numerous conversations we'd had, and his interactions with other guests. I mean, look at him - doesn't his smile just scream integrity?)

(the man himself)

(Fahmy's restaurant... loved by humans and cats alike!
Watch out: he makes a mean chocolate pancake with banana and honey!)

Right, so, biking... Twenty minutes later we arrived at a gorgeous hot spring and lodge, illuminated by candles and firelight. Being a palm tree paradise, it was only fitting that music was playing from "the beach" soundtrack, an all-you-can-eat buffet would be served shortly, and hours of Bedouin singing and dancing were before us. In short it was beyond ridiculously perfect - better than anything I could have schemed. At midnight boys tried to light firework-confetti, but they stuck the wrong end in the sand (even after fifteen minutes of instruction), and so the tinsel ended up in their laps instead of in the air to my utter delight. It was an excellent way to bring in the new year - doubled over with laughter.

Throughout the evening I had meaningful conversations with Fahmy and some of the foreigners around us. Fahmy helped me to take stock of my life and see how rich and simple it is... it was truly a gift to learn with him.

At the party I also met a kind Spanish couple from the Canary Islands. They offered to share their car with me on their journey back to Cairo the following day so I didn't have to spend another full day on a bus. En route we saw a herd of camels (not wild though I wouldn't try befriending them) and stopped in Marsa Matroah to see the sun go down. It was a pleasant end to an incredible trip - Hopefully the first of many forays to the oasis!!


camels: wandering caravan style...

drive-by shooting: I rather like the funny angle

the beautiful beaches at Marsa Matroah
(sure to be packed in a few months)

and a glorious sunset!!

Party in Paradise: new years adventures in Siwa Pt2

After a fun first day in the desert I decided to tone things down for a couple days, work on a paper and wander the town a bit. As I mentioned in my initial (slightly romanticized) description of Siwa, there were beautiful fortress ruins in the heart of town, just begging to be explored...

these ruins were up on one of the natural cliffs, providing an exceptional view of the palm groves, rocky hills, and oasis town

it was a little eerie exploring alone... I didn't run into anyone the whole time I was there

but the sights were incredible...

I could even see the ancient tombs off in the distance

and I did catch this gorgeous cat napping... what a beaut, eh?

After exploring the fortress of Shali, I continued my wandering around town...

Here's a glimpse of the oasis in the distance... it's a lake really, it's huge!

and of course I had to capture the common transport...

the market stalls with their fresh local organics...

and the children at play

Party in Paradise: new years adventures in Siwa Pt1

After a long day on the bus, I arrived in Siwa. Siwa: the remotest outpost on the north side of the Sahara, a stone's throw east of the Libyan border. Siwa: an oasis sanctuary where you can forget the chaos and cares of Cairo by feasting on sweet dates and basking in natural hotsprings. Siwa: a magical community with fortress ruins and oracle temples. Siwa: a name that evokes relaxation and excitement with every syllable... Siwa!

The moment I arrived I knew I had found a treasured paradise. All around me were donkey carts trotting down the dusty roads, men chatting around the main market square, and date groves interspersed with pockets of houses. After checking into a nice budget hotel I began scheming about the best ways to spend my days. Talking with other foreigners, I decided to do at least one typical tourist thing - go on a one-day 'safari' into the desert... Translation: do some dune-riding in an off-roader, meandering out to a gorgeous hot-spring and then catching sunset in the desert. I know this is not normally my style, but what we saw and where we went were only accessible by jeep, and it really was worth every penny! Here are some of the best shots from that day:

Our group at the hotel - one Aussie, four Germans, one Dutchman, one Brit (MIA), one Egyptian, and me. Nine of us crammed into one car like sardines...


but we made some of the guys ride on top so it'd be more comfortable... just joking, they wanted the wild ride so they climbed on top for a while...

the desert was absolutely breath-taking...

the camera couldn't do it justice at all!

Here's a cold spring oasis we visited. It was too cold to swim there this time of year but it was a serene place to wander around.

One of the highlights (apart from the beauty all around us!) was the thrill of driving straight down 60 degree slopes... better than any amusement park, and totally safe with our experienced driver.

We didn't see any animals, in this barren land, but I have proof of their existence!

It was so nice to feel the soft sand between your toes!

This is Bir Waheed Oasis... 30 km away from Siwa, and the site of a lovely hotspring!

of course we had to stay for about an hour, drinking tea and soaking, it was bliss!

it was nice to be out during 'golden hour'... the shadows and contours that came alive were incredible!

"the Aussie made me do it"... ok he inspired me... he was getting me to take pictures of him doing all kinds of action poses and it looked like fun, so i had to give it a try... what a great day to be alive!

At one part we saw an ancient ocean floor, ground down into stone as the ages passed...

we could still see some remnants from the ocean... here's a sand dollar! It was astounding to find this hundreds of kilometres from the Mediterranean!

We ended the day with some tea and sandboarding while the sun went down... it was too cloudy for a spectacular sunset, but that didn't matter in the grand scheme of things, it was an amazing day!